C'mon baby...please please pllllleeeeaaassseeee

It's been a rolling stones kinda day :)

We've had a productive day off so far! I had lunch at Panera Bread with my sister, and T had lunch with his mom at ihop. We dropped his car off for some service, then went to hell aka walmart for groceries and what not.

Tony finally told his mom about the baby today. She is really excited! I met up with them after I finished eating with my sis. She was beaming. She thinks it's a girl. I can't tell you how much better I feel now that she knows. It's such a relief!

His dad and stepmom will be home from New York next week. When they get back, we'll tell them (and his sister & brother in law), then I'm letting it go completely public!

I'm really excited for that day. I want to put it on Facebook, as cheesy as that may be. So far only close family and friends know, and I'm ready for everyone to know. Plus I'm starting to look pregnant. Blahhhhh. Then I can tell everyone about the blog :) 

I just really hope his dad takes it well.

Sorry for the lack of posting today. We were just super busy. Everything before this line was actually typed hours ago. 

I rode with T again on his shift tonight. It had some touchy moments to say the least. He was letting little things get the best of him (aka people not tipping), and getting down on himself. However, when we added up earnings for the night, he was making about $20 bucks an hour.

With that being said, I think he's gonna stop letting the little things get to him.

Who cares baby? I think I wanna marry you...

First off, this may be the sweetest and most impressive marriage proposal EVER! I cried like a little baby. Check it out! 

Live lip-dub marriage proposal

Anyways, I still feel like crap but I'm off tomorrow so hopefully I'll recover. I am just crazy nauseous and headachy. I am not a fan.

Tony is at his new/2nd job right now for his first shift. I hope it's going well! I'm so proud of him for doing this, but I miss him already. I hope he's not gone all night...unless he's making bookoodles of cash. If that's the case, cool. :)

I had a baby dream last night! Peanut was a boy again, and this time I wasn't in some weird high school locker room type hospital all alone...

That's another story entirely.

So yeah, I had our lil peanut and it was a beautiful baby boy...with with blonde, curly hair! What?! T and I both have dark locks so that kinda threw me off. Anyways, he was so cute and really smart. 

See, I can say he was smart because in 95% of my baby dreams, my kid is like 3 years old in a matter of minutes. It's the strangest thing! One minute I had just delivered, the next he's a couple months, then a couple years! Maybe it's a metaphor for how fast childhood goes by....ha, dream metaphors.

We had him down in Troy at my grandparent's house. Several of my cousins, T and I were all in the living room downstairs talking and stuff. I guess the older folks were gone somewhere and had taken peanut with them.

So we were all sitting around smoking a joint....

I'm such a classy dream parent.

I wanna give a shout-out to honey Teddy Grams.... My doctor told me to try them for nausea and I gotta say, they really do help! I'm keeping the box beside my bed to combat early morning sickness. Tasty and helpful, can't beat it! :)

Is blogging at work counterproductive?

I feel like complete shit today. I almost called in to work, except Wednesdays are usually our slowest days. I had to fight myself to keep from puking this morning. I really feel sick sick. This is going to be a longggg day.

Tony starts his part time job today. I'm so proud of him!!! I hope he likes it and that it's all we think it will be. Extra cash flow would really be awesome right now.

I don't have too much to say right now. The weather here looks pretty bad. We're in for some bad thunderstorms today. I hope all my friends and family are safe and secure.

My mom is fine, by the way. It got a little dicey there yesterday, but last I talked to her (around 11pm) she was watching Friends and having an adult beverage.

I turned off our cable and internet yesterday.  We need to save that money anyways. The internet was slow as Christmas, and we can piggyback off of a neighbor's wifi with a much better connection. I can watch most of what I already watch as it is on Netflix. Adult decisions...wooo.

I'm gonna end here. I feel a puke session coming on and my head is throbbing. More later.

Hurricane Isaac

Just wanted to send out a quick prayer for everyone that has been or will be impacted by hurricane Isaac. I've got a lot of family and friends down on the gulf coast. Just hope everyone is prepared.

Speaking of family, Babs (my lovely mother) is actually in Destin right now. She is there by herself, and is refusing to come home, seeing no danger in the situation...

I DON'T get it. Why would you want to stay in a hurricane when you don't have to?  She should have come home yesterday. Now she can't leave. The water from the gulf is already covering the entire beach, and hitting the seawall.

She says she has a meeting with a lady about having new drapes put in, and she is going to buy new patio furniture today.

Well, if she stands around outside long enough, some new stuff might just blow by...



These are the genes we are passing down to our child. I'm worried.

Early morning conclusions...

First off, good morning bloggos! Sleep well? Good, good.

I've come to a few conclusions this morning that I would like to share with you. I hope you enjoy.

1. We need a bigger bed. The more pregnant I get, the more I realize this. Dear God. When we moved into our place, Tony's parents gave us his furniture from his room at home. Don't get me wrong, it's really nice stuff....but we're sleeping on a full sized bed, with a dog. Now I love to snuggle, but I would love to have the option to spral out and not kick my future husband in the kidney.

2. Tony is the biggest baby in the mornings. I have no problem being his alarm clock, but good lord... I don't have to be at work for another 3 hours after him. I would like to get some extra sleep. The problem with me is that once I'm awake, It's gonna take me at least two hours to go back to sleep. So, by the time I'm ready to hit the hay, it's time to get up. Anyways, this is our morning routine- 

-----6:30- 1st alarm goes off. I hit snooze. "Baby, it's time for you to get up. C'mon, wake up!"

-----6:39- 2nd alarm goes off. I hit snooze, again. "Seriously babe, get up! You're gonna be late...again!" T-"what time is it?" B-"6:40." T-"I'll get up at 6:50."

At this point, Lily is completely awake, bouncing around, being cute, what have you. I'm 100% awake.

-----6:48 3rd alarm goes off. I hit snooze one more time. "TONY GET UP! NOW! GET OUT OF BED AND GET IN THE SHOWER. YOU'RE ACTING LIKE A LITTLE KID. GET UPPPP!" T-"Geeze you don't have to be so mean about it, I'm up."

He may have his eyes open but he's not up yet. Ohh no. He has to lay in bed, check his phone, mess with me, then for about 3 minutes he will be incredibly sweet and cuddly. Wait....are his eyes closed? "You little shit! Get up baby!"

-----6:57 final alarm goes off. He's up...and so am I. Because of all this snoozing, he now has 45 minutes to shower, eat, and get ready for work. Do you know what that means for me?

Plates and cups on the table, pans on the stove, eggshells in the sink and wet towels on the floor.

Of course he always says, "Oh don't worry about it. I'll take care of it later.' But what do we do? The women? We clean it up, all of it. I do it because he is amazing and loves me more than anything. I do it because he would do it for me. I do it because I don't want the house to look like a pig sty! 

I can't tell you how many times we've had the "just get up 5 minutes earlier" conversation. Does it work? No. I've just about concluded that I will be dealing with this for the rest of my life. But if this is the worst problem in our relationship, I can dig it. :)

3. Pooping while pregnant is a freaking chore! Yeah, I said it. Pooping. I always feel like I'm about to EXPLODE and have to urgently get to a toilet. After 5, 10 mins...2 pebbles and I'm done. What the hell is that? Is this normal? I need to do some pregnant pooping googling.....I hope that doesn't take me to some kind of freaky fetish porn....

4. And finally, I can't wait til halloween with a little one! I love halloween as it is, but last night we both got to thinking about how amazing halloween is as a kid. We both want to make the holiday as fun and funky as possible for our little tyke. Really go over the top with it. EEEKKK!!!!

The same goes for Christmas, really. I'm just excited as fall is approaching, halloween is the closest and is on my mind. We'll cross the Christmas bridge when we get to it.

But all the other moms are doing it...

I really like blogging. I know I don't have a ton of readers right now, but it's not the most important thing. It's liberating to get my thoughts typed out and I think it's healthy to get to visit them again later.

I started this because I wanted to see if I could make some money off of it. Wouldn't it be amazing to NOT have to work a 9 to 5 and just blog while my kid is asleep to make the diaper money? Hecks yeah it would!

I do still hope that will happen, after all, other moms have done it. Why not me!?

I can't wait to start blogging about cute baby stuff I'm buying, baby showers, gifts (!!!), if it's a boy or a girl (!!!!!!!), all the fun stuff! I just hope people enjoy my writing and my view on things. I have nothing to hide, my life is an open blog.

I hope I can help other moms along the way. Answer some questions, give some advice. I've already learned so much from reading what other mamas are saying, and I hope I can be that kind of mama too.



Cute random story: At the hotel where I work, there is this single mom with 2 of the CUTEST boys that live here. The youngest one, Jack, is my best buddy! He'll come in (like he just did) and tell me the funniest things. He just asked me when I'm gonna bring in my baby to visit. I told him it's gonna be a little while before that happens. One of my favorite Jack stories happened at the beginning of the summer. He came into the lobby shirtless, dancing and singing, "I'm sexy and I know it....OWWW!" I wanted to die! His mom was slightly mortified, but we both got a great laugh out of that.

I complain about my job a lot, but moments like that show me that it really could be much, much worse. I can't wait til my kid does cute stuff like that. :)

You find out who your true friends are.

Well, I feel sick today. Beyond just pregnant. I really hope I'm not coming down with anything. I literally can't afford to miss any work. Hmmmph.

I was thinking this morning about my friends different reactions to this pregnancy. Most of them have been wonderfully supportive! That's the best feeling in the world, having such a great support team. It rocks!

On the other hand, I've had 2 friends go completely silent after hearing the news.... And these were both girls I considered to be really good friends! One I've known for almost 6 years, the other since 5th grade.

Granted I told them both over text, but that's just me. I'm not big at talking on the phone. When I do, they are usually 2 hour conversations (which I love) but just random 5 min chats drive me banana sandwich. Both these girls know that about me.

I just don't get it!

I would have rather them say horrible things than nothing at all. Where do I go with that? Are you disappointed? Are you pissed? Are you in shock? What the hell?! Give me something, girl.

I guess that's just a really good way of them telling me they don't want to be friends anymore. That sucks, but that's life.

Instead of getting tore up about it, I'm gonna be thankful for friends like Abby, Courtney, Sarah, Dezi, Michell, Anne and Amy. Those are worth it!

Just a little worthy side note- I've been friends with Anne virtually my entire life. She is getting married in December, and she will have me standing beside her 7 months pregnant in a bridesmaid dress. Now that's a friend! I will also gladly accept my role as DD for the bachelorette party. I know she'd do the same for me. :)